presenting... my other life

Chen Ling & Han Qi Luo, Cha Song-Ju & Han Jung-Suh, Han Ki-Joo & Kang Tae-Young, Jung Jae-Min & Lee Soo-Jung, Xiao Tao & Ah Li, Jun-Sang & Yoo-Jin...

Do you know any of these people?

These are the individuals, or as it may, couples, that make up my other life.. the life I have when I'm not out with friends or family, or when I'm not off to some party or long-anticipated reunion.

Do you get it?

When I am alone, this is what I do. This is my other profession, that if I actually made money out of this, I would definitely be a millionaire by now. A billionaire, on marathon days, perhaps.

What am I?

I'll keep you guessing.

I spend my days and nights with these people they are real.. they follow their hearts and take charge of situations I only wish I had enough courage to.

Sometimes I want to strangle some of them.. because many times their delay to execute an emotion can be quite frustrating.

Are you with me yet?

I love them.. love them all. I love them for their passion, their devotion, their sacrifices for each other in spite of all the circumstances that try to tear them apart. I especially love the way he holds her and the way he chases after the bus she's riding, as if there were no tomorrow.

Actually, I only love one thing.. their love.

I LOVE THEIR LOVE.

The day I find someone who will travel to whatever corner of the earth I have squeezed myself in to look for me, who will give up his entire career, his money (if he has any), the comfort of life as he knows it, to spend his life with me, is the day I am in trouble.

I am in trouble because I will fall in love in a heartbeat.

The secret of love
I thought I understood
The way it's supposed to be
I never imagined you could
blow my theory apart
and now you're running away with my heart

Arrows through hearts
drawn on a misty window
you're taking me home in the rain
my heart is beating
don't say no
my head keeps saying
take it slow

You're giving me a feeling
it's a sudden rush
acting on a moment
spontaneous
oooh this is not like me
to follow my heart so easily

I don't wanna think about it
don't wanna think clear
don't analyze
what I'm doing here
wanna be impulsive
reckless
and lose myself in your kiss

-- Wilson Phillips, IMPULSIVE


Losing myself in your kiss = TROUBLE = YEHEY.

I think we are getting off topic.

Did I mention these people do not know me? But I know them all so well.. as if they were the back of my hand. I memorized their names and stories by heart, it's preposterous.

Actually they aren't REALLY REAL. Especially not in the way the Velveteen Rabbit puts it. What is real for me is the personalities and eccentricities that are brought to life because of them.

What am I already?

Sige na nga, siret na.

I AM A TRUE BLUE... ATENEAN. Haha. Joke. (I really am but that's not it.)

I AM A BONAFIDE CHINOVELA, KOREANOVELA JUNKIE.

That's it.

I love them because they make me believe in something better.. that I should never SETTLE. NEVER EVER SETTLE for something, or somebody, for that matter, that I am not madly, ridiculously, insanely in love with.

Lover, are you there?

I can't wait to meet you.

In the meantime, take it easy.. today is yours.

Tomorrow is ours.


Do you understand me now?



In a perfect world, The Lover would be this sizzling specimen.