don't read this post if you hate ramblings

last month..

a friend of mine from work resigned to move on to better opportunities. i miss her dearly but i know we'll still keep in touch.

another friend from work told me she'll be resigning as well. i feel another wave of sadness come through me but i know she's been waiting for this a long time.

you go girls!

i kept thinking about what i'm going to do next. next week, next month, next year. i want to move but there's nowhere to move to.. that means i stay right?

i felt i was missing something.. turns out i might be wrong. i'm just over-rationalizing again. boo to worriers! boo to me =(

among other things and crazy work/ career matters..

another distraction has come up. i am flat-out floored, positively intoxicated, slightly dazed, completely confused. what is my next step here?

none. unless someone takes a step back and clears the fuzzy picture.

ever feel like you are only good in a certain situation and don't know how you would fare at others? like you might be no good at all in another setting?

crap. just thinking about it now scares me. it's almost as if i don't want to know. yes. actually i don't want to know so don't tell me.

black or white, what's it going to be? gray areas suck. you never know what you're good for.

okay this is the last of this. i'm not going to say it again.

c'mon. decide. i can take a hint.


~~ this moment to think is provided by people who talk to themselves~~


i think i know what the answer is. okay, so forget i asked. got it.

crystal.